Lessons

As my best friend Logan keeps telling me, we're gonna make it. I continue to hold dear to these words through all the crap that is going on. I would use a nicer word, but that's what it is. Crap. As I mentioned in my last post about heartache, 2014 has not been the easiest year so far. Currently, I am in the most uncertain stage of life I have ever encountered. It has caused me anxiety, worry, and many sleepless nights. Graduation is quickly approaching, the inevitability of my "being on my own" coming in the form of moving out and getting a big girl job, and the heartache of the trials going on in and around my life.

Despite everything, feeling like my life is a roller coaster of good days and bad days, I don't think I have ever felt God's love so strongly. I am learning some hard lessons, but the people God has so graciously surrounded me with have taught me some very important things. I want to share these with you.

1. Sometimes people are only in your life for a season.
I have an incredibly hard time letting go, as I believe I've mentioned before. Even in the darkest and suckiest situations, people you love and cherish will leave you. Sometimes by choice, sometimes due to their behavior, and sometimes because God takes them from us. We must always remember though, there's a reason for this. God knows best. Regardless of what I am going through, God has always provided one or two or three or more people in my life to give me just what I need. So, there may come a time where someone is no longer good for you or has served their purpose and it's time to move on.

2. TREASURE those friends and family you know will always be there.
My family is mine and I am theirs. They will never ever leave me and they will always love me no matter what I do in this life. God gave me my family as a representation of His love. I must remember they are a treasure just for me! I must treat them as so. If you're lucky, as I know I am, God will also grant people aside from your family in your life that will become like family. People that will become constants in your life no matter what season you are going through. You know who those people are, because you're thinking of them right now as you read this. Those of you in my life, you know who you are, you are a treasure to me.

3. If you are God's child, He will put you flat on your back as a wake-up call if needed
This is something we've been taught. Growing up in church, you know that God is a loving God, but He will chastise His children when needed. Even when you think you've done the worst thing you could ever do, God will still love you. God will pick you back up and put you where you need to be. That is a love greater than I can even fathom. This may not be a new lesson, but it's always one that humbles me.

4. When you don't know what the answer is, PRAY
I don't know what kind of job or where I need to be. I've gotten a couple of "you're not what we're looking for right now" answers to job leads. I am not sure what exactly I need to be doing or looking for in this next stage of life. But you know who does? God. I must pray specifically for Him to show me where He wants me. What He wants for my life. Cause I don't know! I need to stop thinking I've got it all under control, cause I absolutely do not. But God does.

5. Cherish the people who check on you and pray for you
Through these hard times, one thing is true. I am loved. Although not everyone knows my situation or every detail of what is troubling me (I've given you a glimpse now), I find people checking on me and letting me know they are praying for me. Even just these little things help me get through the day. I am so thankful to know I am not alone. God placed these people in my path on purpose.

It never ceases to amaze me how God so intricately works into every little thing in my life. Even in the darkest of valleys, God is there. He is my rock. He should have been more prominently relied on and these situations in my life are a tool God is using to bring me closer to Him.

Until next time,
Reychel